The Ball is Rolling!

Even though I don't plan to invite anybody to view this for quite some time, today was a momentous day for us, and it should be documented.  We completed and turned in our application to be considered for adoption to the adoption agency that we thought was the best match for us.  I am feeling about ten thousand emotions as I consider how huge of a step this was for us.  First, we are so excited to embark on this journey.  We are not disillusioned into believing this will be an easy, fast, or uncomplicated path, but we are so excited to see how it all unfolds.  We are anxious to begin the next steps, which will be to complete a home study after we pass the state required background checks, and the references required by our agency.  And part of us will always be heartbroken, as we start this new chapter, we are reminded of the miracles that were ours for too short of a time, our sweet twins, Savannah and Charlie.  We remember how close we were to having all of our dreams come true, and how very quickly things changed for us.  While we will never understand why they weren't here to stay, we appreciate the time we spent with them, and are thankful that they left together, and will have each other for eternity.  Our dreams have changed, and our plan has changed, but the outcome hasn't.  Our goal has been to become parents, and there are more children in store for us.  We are thrilled to prepare for our future children, and can't wait to begin the next portion of the process.  Tonight, while saying our bedtime prayers, we will continue to include patience for ourselves, and we will also pray that we don't drive our social worker crazy as we are so eager to begin:)